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The end of homeschool

I began homeschooling years ago, when my oldest child started 3rd grade. Since then I've had quite a few more children and so naturally they've been home their entire lives and also homeschooled. This is the first year that I was not homeschooling my oldest (13) since he also is living with his father recently. This was also the first legal year for homeschool for my next oldest child (6 yo,1st grade). This has been an extremely difficult season being separated from my husband of 7 years, just having a new baby, and unable to work to support us but searching out all possibilities, taking care of our 2 year old, 4 year old, and trying to do school with the 6 year old. I'm stretched to thin. I am trying to find work or ways of supporting myself and children and it difficult when you have a baby who isn't even 6 weeks old , never mind that I priced childcare for 3 children, for a week, at an average of $450.00. How do I even make that much? Of course I am also nursing and any mother who has nursed their child would understand the difficulties alone in that. My mind is so preoccupied with all of these things and the housework and the work around the house the men usually do, and so much more that I can not give my absolute best and one on one attention needed to homeschool my first grader right now. So I just registered him for school. I'm glad that he is at least excited. It gives me a weight off my shoulder too. Something I do not have to feel guilty about if I didn't get certain work done with him that I would have liked, or having to think of activities and projects for the day.  However I'm sad to end something that I felt like was a calling in our family. My 6 year old has never left my side, I can not even imagine our day while he is in school. I genuinely hope that his sweetness will not be swayed by life in school. I hope that he will be a light in the school as I pray my oldest is too. I pray that they will be leaders in the world and not followers of the world. I pray that this would be an exciting and adventurous time in their lives. I pray that close friendships would be developed. Join me in praying for our children in schools please. In just a couple of days the school bus will pull up to our home and my son will step into a whole new world and I will probably be a wreck as I wave goodbye for the day.

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