Jesus shows up and tells Thomas to look at His hands and to put his finger on His side. Thomas knew then and Jesus responded to Him in John 20:29 " you believe because you have seen me, blessed are those who believe and have not seen".
That quote has been popping up in my mind a lot in this transition of life recently with the many struggles of a divorce, betrayals, pain and loss, moving, financial problems, raising children, and much more. I have had some days where I am having one of those conversations with the Lord that look less like faith and trust and more like "where are You, don't You see what's going on , how long must I wait?" It's been a season of seeking Him out more, asking to be more aware of His presence, holding onto His promises, praying His Kingdom come His will be done and yet there's been silence, there's been a lot of opposition, and a feeling of God not being there even though His word says He will never leave me. And in those emotional and overwhelmed desperate moments come, where you just about feel like giving up on God ,my mind rushes to the scripture of Jesus telling Thomas that blessed are the ones who believe without seeing.
I had always thought of that story and scripture to really just mean in the literal sense, because Thomas had seen Jesus's face. Thomas had walked with Him, was taught by Him and then had a face to face encounter with Him after He rose from the dead. But what if Jesus wasn't just talking about that in the literal and physical sense of a face to face encounter. What if He meant in everything : blessed are those who believe without seeing.
I've had conversations and desperate cries of "Lord I can't see the way, even though Your word says You direct my steps and are a lamp into my feet to light the way".
What about when you can't see how God could possibly have a good plan for your life, or when someone uses their free will that so effects your life and seems opposite of what Gods will is?
What about when people all around you are recieving the very things you been praying for and believing for but haven't received yet?
What about when you've prayed for more of His presence in your life and then you feel like your the furthest from Him you've ever been?
There are so many different scenarios, and it's been challenging facing then all in the same season.
I feel like the scripture is one more to hold onto... BLESSED are those who believe without seeing.
Without seeing answered prayers.
Without seeing in the natural
Without seeing YET, but I believe it comes.
Keep believing. Seasons come and go. Hold onto the promises He has made.